If you made the conscious choice to put yourself first, what would that look like?
If I chose you, I would choose to love.
I would follow my heart and **INSERT DREAM**
I would choose to chase that lover around the world
I would choose to slow down my weekends
strolls at farmers markets, slow cooked lentils and afternoon naps and cat snuggles
I would choose that piece of cake
And savour each bite
I would read books in bed until 11am
drinking expensive tea and dark chocolate
Sometimes, its buying that ludicrously expensive kimono
because of how it makes you feel
Or saving up for the holiday (or spending a mortgage worth of money on a holiday)
Or calling that man you so desperately want to love
Or having the conversation with your friend about boundaries
Choosing yourself over others is not selfish
It is self preservation
Its saying no to social events because you’re on day 1 of your cycle
It is allowing yourself to feel ANGRY
disappointed. Sometimes at the same time
Sometimes when I choose me, it looks like vegging out with netflix and procrastinating.
But it can also mean going through with it
Whether that be the business you've always wanted to start
The phone call you want to make
The conversation you need to have
Choosing you means to eat foods that align with your beliefs, desires, and needs
taking a mental health day
It means to love fiercely and openly, and acknowledging the desire to be loved fiercely in return
When I choose you, chicken-ing out is not an option
Guilt only indicates initial discomfort you feel for choosing you over someone else
Choosing you first isn't easy
Often it is the hardest path
And sometimes putting yourself first means to put others before you.
But know that it will ALWAYS lead you closer to your truth
Your souls' yearning
Your life purpose
Where are you choosing you?